Cheer me up, cheer me up, I'm a miserable fuck.

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I am just alone in this world with what I've done
If I was something special, you would love me, wouldn't you?
I am just a mixture of what terrifies me, and of hatred for what I've become.
If I was better, you would love me, wouldn't you?

Everything I write is shit anyway, why should I even write anymore.

I am better, I will get better with time
I know who you are, and you are not mine
But my feelings don't change the way yours do,
Though that still doesn't stop me from loving you.
 
And "Sorry," it seems, is all you can say
Even though I cling to you, you're getting further away
And the truth is that I'm as much to blame as yourself
I don't deserve shit, and I fucking hate myself.
 

The worst is trying to fall asleep
When reality's worse than any bad dream
And I can't find the words to just say
That I love you, god dammit, just stay.

:( Not happy with how this came out.

The things that we say when we're all out of words
And we'll pretend to feel because we don't want to hurt
I'll forget the past, and you'll forget your lies
I'll be there for you, and you'll be there sometimes
 
But we'll all make mistakes, and we'll all be let down
I guess I'll get over this, I'll get over you somehow
And I feel so damn alone, but I guess we all are
And I'll keep to myself, before this goes too far
 
It's over,
It's over,
I'm done.

You see, the illness has taken over me
The pain and the sadness have no reprieve.
I just want to wake up and have this be over
I wish it was a year ago, the second week of last October
I want to start again, I want a chance to be better
But my body's insisting it will be like this forever.
 
Please don't let me stay like this forever.

Can we stay like this forever
Can I tell you that I'm better
Will you believe me when I say
That I love you, please stay.
 
I am so alone.
Feelings on their own.
Turning into a ghost,
Is this what you want the most?
 
I am afraid
Just like you
Or so I think you are,
I am alone,
I am afraid.

I wake up every morning, and I remember.
I try not to let bring tears to my eyes.
I wake up every morning, and I remember.
The betrayal, the truth, and your lies.
 
I hate to break it to you, but I can't get better.
I've been in therapy for years.
I hate to break it to you, but I can't get better.
Don't you remember all the tears?
 
There is no love like your love
There is no time like our time
There is no love like my love
Is what's best for me what's best for you?
 
I can't believe we used to say forever
Does forever mean an eternity from the start?
I can't believe we used to say forever
Does forever mean "until I break your heart"?
 
Is the end always inevitable?
Can anybody love me forever?
Is the end always inevitable?
Does anybody want to stay together?
 
There is no love like your love
There is no time like our time
There is no love like my love
Is what's best for me what's best for you?
 
When will nausea stop accompanying sorrow?
When will things get any better?
When will nausea stop accompanying sorrow?
I think I'll be this sick forever.
 
I've never been betrayed like you betrayed me.
I keep myself awake to think my thoughts
I've never been betrayed like you betrayed me.
Are you good for me? Are you not?
 
There is no love like your love
There is no time like our time
There is no love like my love
Is what's best for me what's best for you?
 
You were what was best for me; what are you now?